I ate the seeds, I smoked the skunk :gandalf: . Then it was all good for a while. Then the skunk high crept up on me and I was like WOOOOOOOOOOW DUUUUUUUUUUUDE YOU TRICKED ME! When writing a post here I suddenly felt something similar to Salvia - reality was only what I could see with my eyes - that which was in front of me. As for the rest which I couldn't see, behind me, it was open space and it was kinda.....sucking me in and dissolving me. Ok, breaking from writing the post to draw what I mean:
OMG UES ART THREADZ!
That's how I felt. Mind you, I didn't
see that, just felt it intensely.
The thin line around the table and me was my perceived reality, everything out of that felt like outer space as far as I was concerned, literally. This was like, only an hour after ingestion. By two hours I was already peaking, compared to 3-4 hours till peak on most other LSA experiences. During and after the picture up there, the back of my head started melting which was VERY real. It tickled a lot and made me laugh like an idiot. At one point I actually inspected it with my hand to be sure that part of my head won't be missing tomorrow. Soon I felt the "sudden tiredness" and intense need to lie down. Not meeting this need on my previous 300 seed trip almost resulted in me fainting in a crowded tram. Remember kids, when doing LSA, have somewhere to lie down. This tiredness was more pronounced on this trip than previous ones.
I read before that weed helps the LSA trip "lift off", and now for the first time saw it for myself. When the skunk subsided the LSA just carried on at the same intensity, thus I didn't even notice the LSA effects getting higher towards the peak. When the skunk wore off, the LSA was already peaking.
I guess this trip was more weirdness and fun oriented than insightful because most of it was in my room. I blame the computer, it was just too interesting to get away from. I read wikipedia for hours, including advanced physics stuff I don't know shit about and boring stuff I would never read sober. I found myself staring at
THIS picture for a good 20 minutes. First it was a bunch of circles moving and bouncing off each other. Then I noticed the red circles and it was like, "Wow, cute little Japans going around, haha, so silly"......um, yeah....after that phase, I saw the picture in 3D. It wasn't just 2D stuff going left right up and down, it were now 3D round objects rotating around a common gravity center. It was an atomic dance.
That's one more reason I think I didn't have some great insights - I was fighting it in stead of letting go, I was fighting it because I wanted to read wiki and other stuff that were just insanely interesting, but I had very much trouble with reading it because my attention span was like, 4 seconds, and I would re-read bigger sentences a lot because by the time I got to the end I wouldn't remember what the beginning was about. I wanted to stay focused at what I was doing in stead of letting my mind float away. Paradoxical and kinda stupid, I was tripping but wanted to focus on my reality.
I took some pictures with my camera, nothing special (actually most of them suck and are ordinary, but I'll post them anyway :P ):
Room
Posters
Eye
Nail :D
You may have already seen this
Remote
Bed illuminated by black light
Door handle
PC
Same
My hand - I like this one, especially since I have one artistic similar to it, and they would go well together. (
"Searching")
Later I called a friend and we went for a walk, even though I had fears of "sudden needing to lie down" in the middle of the street.
I saw everything. Looking down the street, I.could.see.everything.
Since I go to a journalism college, I recently read about camera objectives from a book from TV class. And the large field of vision objectives that can film things both close and far at the same time without one of those being blurry. Well, that was it. It was the first thing that came to my mind. I never focused my vision on something like we usually do when we want to see it more clearly. Everything was clear, and my horizontal field of vision felt like it was way more than 180 degrees. Like a cinema screen.
After a circle 'round the block I got back home for some more mindfuck. Most of the stuff after this point is blurry. I bathed in the light of my room some more. I played X3 and that was like, orgasm. A planet, a moon, a sun, a red nebula and many asteroids. Oh man. The asteroids were moving. I know that they don't move in the game, but they were anyway. Time was crazy as usual. I would think an hour has passed, then look at the clock to see that only 15 minutes passed. Food also sucked as usual. I would think how I can't wait to eat this chocolate, then was disappointed that it has very little taste and thought I'd leave it for tomorrow when I can enjoy it more :D
I did have some revelations, though they were more "along the way" than "in your face" like previously. The revelations were mostly about my view of myself and are something I'd like to also keep for myself :)
I got very tired and even fed up by 6 hours after ingestion and went to sleep. FAIL. I could fall asleep on LSA before, but not now. Now here's something I found rather unpleasant and frustrating:
I go to sleep. Suddenly half my body is missing, I can't feel my legs. I "wake up", regain the feel of my legs, have an INSANE field of view for a few seconds (like looking through binoculars from the wrong end), then notice that my legs are so cold that they might even be dead. I guess from the screwed up circulation, LSA does that. Then I try to go to sleep again and the cycle repeats itself. I never thought I could say this, but after this continued on I was like "oh come on LSA, FUCKING END ALREADY". I also had some difficulty with urinating and taking a shit. Taking a shit was fail actually, but I could urinate although it took longer to start. Whether it's from the screwed circulation and inability to feel and control the muscles responsible for those actions, I don't know.
All in all it was a good trip. Strong and exotic, a little less insightful than I would have hoped for, but I don't regret my trips how ever they turn out.
I had a good sleep and woke up some 8-9 hours later, sober, though my pupils were still slightly dilated, but that went away within an hour. I was kinda tired, my legs felt a bit sore from the circulation crap, but the afterglow was there, and again, the moment I walked out of my building in the morning, breathed the fresh air, looked at the trees, the fluffy clouds, felt the wind and sun on my skin, just being alive felt like a luxury I was almost unworthy of. It was priceless.